In the Pit of my Stomach....

I have this awful, going to cry on a dime feeling. It has been there for the past two weeks. I have tried to push it to the side and pretend it wasn't there, pretend that the time wasn't passing and soon it would be the last day before school starts. But I cant pretend anymore, it's here. School starts on Monday, and even though I love the beginning of a new school year,refreshing my classroom,new school supplies and of course meeting all my new little chidlers!! I can't get this feeling to go away! I am dropping off my baby at Grandma's(daycare). I have to pack him up and say good bye, love you, be back soon. It is the most bitter sweet thing I have had to do in awhile. I know he is going to be great at Grandma's and I know it is good for him, I'm just selfish and I want to send all of that time with him! Everyone says it will get easier, I just wish I was at the easy part, this feels like a broken heart:(